the dark underbelly of love
I really liked this post/poem/reflection on breathing space about the dark underbelly of love. It is all good, but an excerpt:
Wanting more of them than you can ever hope to receive in this life, and knowing that constant pain.
Allowing your beloved to do something to hurt themselves, keeping silent, knowing that to otherwise would only damage the relationship and create rifts and no-talk zones.. which seems worse than the hurt of the thing itself.
Allowing yourself to need their love, and despair so grievously at real or imagined loss.
Seeing them transfer their affection to another you dont know and dont trust..
yet knowing you can’t hold onto them, but just stand waiting at the shore.
I don’t know what prompted eddie to write this, but it really struck a chord with me and some things that have been going on lately. Read the whole thing here.
April 5th, 2003 at 6:15 pm
@ 04/01/2003 08:59:
aw shux Dan…
Glad that it struck a chord with you too… It was hard to write, but needed to be expressed due to various things happening. Also showed me a lot more about how God must feel, given that I feel this way from a few fickle or unfaithful friends, what pain must he be put through all the time…. I shudder to think…
anyway - thanks for quoting… made my day.
Eddie.
April 5th, 2003 at 6:15 pm
@ 04/01/2003 16:20:
good stuff eddie….keep writing
D
January 23rd, 2006 at 1:40 pm
I am having an affair with Christine … 0410 168 630. She is georgous, and sexy, and I don’t want to give here up
January 23rd, 2006 at 2:44 pm
I felt that way when my pet rabbit died……….vey sad